my hearts broken, but not only does my heart feel like that. every other part of my body feels useless. this year has been a year i will never forget. i met my first love and fell completely head over heels in love with him. i still am yet everything became fucked up. we’re not going back to each other. well who knows? if its meant to be we’ll find our way back to each other, and if it’s not then another person will walk into our lives’. for now, we both have to grow up separately because constantly hurting each other cannot go on any longer. i met the most perfect person in the wrong time. love can be beautiful and it can be disastrous. even though he has made me realize how beautiful everything can be, i have to let him go. i dont know where this new chapter will take me but for now, i cant imagine anything else but hell.

meant nothing. you broke up with me over the phone because of something stupid and something little. Because i didn’t text you back when I could’ve and yes you did something similar to me the day before, but no, when it comes down to you, blowing everything out of proportion seems to be the only answer. yes i apologized even though it wasn’t a big deal yet you kept insisting that we’ll start acting horribly to each other. throwing away everything we have is exactly what you fucking want. if someone loves someone so much and says (disclosure to really personal and cheesy shit)…, does breaking up with them mean that? grow up kid. do you think it’s a game to you where you can mess with my fucking head, thinking i’ll call back 5 minutes later apologizing even more? do you think you can still constantly do this and hurt me even more? you dont fucking care, well i dont care anymore too. 

fuck you.